Have you seen her?

I was scrolling through pictures of myself from the past year, when I was serious about my fitness and doing something for myself I was my most happiest. I've lost that happiness, that drive, that motivation that started it all..... I wasn't where I wanted to be but I was better off then I am today.... I NEED HELP!!!!! I don't even know where or how to start!!!! I'm slowly losing myself again, and I don't know how to balance it all: my fitness, my marriage, parenting, my business, my household, my life.....