I can't adult today!

Today was a good day 1/17, even though yesterday 1/16 evening left a bad taste in my mouth I did my core kinetics which I wasn't sure if I was or not but I was unhappy and I needed them endorphins to kick in quick, it was only 16 minutes I got it done and I felt that much better. I woke up feeling pretty good but leave it up to kids to be kill joys..... I decided that I was not going to adult today and I would do something for me, but I made sure to get in my 9 rounds of Core de force, and had my healthiest meal of the day. I called up my road dog and we headed to Spa Castle for much needed rest and relaxation. We had a wonderful carefree day, now it's time to get back to reality kids, husband, after-school pickup, dinner, laundry etc. In route home I received a text message that would set the tone for the rest of my evening. Now I was feeling so amazing, and relaxed and I needed that especially with this mixed martial arts I've been doing, but as soon as that text came through my body automatically tensed up to prepare for the battle I knew was coming. Something that took me all day to gain, was snatched away in moments and made me feel that all that time was a waste. Why bother? I tried to have me time and the whole world ended, so I came home and just jumped into the chaos forgetting my wonderful morning/afternoon. This has left me feeling so numb and questioning a lot of life choices. People are so quick to say I live this lavish life, and how lucky I am to be able to be home that shit pisses me off to my soul..... People really don't understand how hard I have to work, how much is expected of me and half the time none of it is appreciated, but like you have a job and you punch a clock I'm doing the same thing and I'm pretty sure that half of what my job consists of on a good day most people couldn't do.... Rant over now back to my regularly scheduled program....