Feeling: An emotion state or reaction

Upon getting married you believe without a doubt that the person you are marrying is your best friend, your confidant, your soulmate, the one person who knows you inside and out and accepts you without judgement. What happens after 8 years of being together and 5 years of marriage you realize your not the same person you were before, and your not quite sure who that person was and how did they get here to the current time. Prior to marriage I was a free spirit that sounds better than any other words I could come up with lol. The idea of marriage never crossed my mind, and at the time I didn't believe I was worthy of such a thing. Then I met my now husband and our beginning interactions were very awkward and didn't prove to be going anywhere fast.... As I got to know him I realized his thought pattern was different from anyone I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. He use to always joke that he couldn't be with someone like me because I was a "free spirit" but as we hung out more and more we became quite fond of each other. Being in his life was a different experience nothing I had ever experience before, and I liked it but I didn't know how to "act" there was a lot I didn't know, so I did a crash course and molded myself in what I believed he wanted me to be to fit into his world something he never asked me to do by the way. It was something I was use to doing, and by me doing that so often I had no clue to who I really was. Skip ahead to the current year. I started a fitness journey in January something else that never crossed my mind. As I started to lose the weight a lot changed. I became more confident, more out spoken. Instead of hiding in the shadows I wanted to be seen. This person I was becoming took the world by storm as my body started to transform, so did my mind. Things I didn't want before I now want and vice versa. In the mist of all this you have my poor husband who was use to his simple wife, and his simple life trying to figure out what happened??? And I can't quite explain it but I want him to just be on board!!! I scream MY FEELINGS, MY FEELINGS all day long and never once stopped to consider his feelings in this whole transformation. Don't tell him I'm admitting this he will never let me live this down!!! How do we get back on the same page without me having to regress?